This morning I finished reading The Poisonwood Bible (here’s the story behind that). It is stunning; the kind of book that changes you. The kind of book that makes you roar with injustice, with hope. It murmurs sentences like the one above, lines that made me cry, on nearly every page.
It should be required reading. Forget Catcher in the Rye; forget my love for The Great Gatsby, for the Whartons of the world. (Sorry, Edith. Love you always.) Make this the title all seniors in high school have to read before graduating.
It’s also the kind of book that makes a writer go, well, fudge. I didn’t write that. And how can we all go on breathing when there are people writing things like this among us, and we are not revering them as gods?
I’ve been on a writing break since I finished revisions to a manuscript and sent them off in December. Now I am waiting. The trick to this long, neverending game is knowing that the waiting will creep in and settle down into your pores if you’re not careful, turning you into a bottle of impatience, ready to pop.
The trick, also, is wondering if maybe I will be an old woman, my own country, too, before this, this big goal, happens for me. And maybe that’s just the train I’m on, carrying a ticket I can’t remember buying, but resigning myself to the ride. And maybe I just have to be okay with that, and keep taking day trips to other cities in the meantime.