This list is missing some things. Somewhere in this first full year of parenthood, and parenthood-while-working, and parenthood-while-working-and-revising-a-novel, I started to forget to track my books.

Books are a funny thing, those first few months of new parenthood. They are inaccessible, a stack piled high on my nightstand, which I'd consider each night -- can I spare a few minutes to read instead of sleep? How big a risk would it be? -- and ultimately decide, no, I can't handle a book right now. I can only handle sleep, my body tense and fraught as it waited for the inevitable cries from the next room.

And then your baby grows, day by day and month by month, and books become part of your life again. You find energy, again. You go back to work and you are gifted reading time in the form of a subway commute. You find yourself, again, through their pages.

My book list this year doesn't include the many books I've read with my baby. It doesn't count the way we stand in front of her bookshelf and read and re-read every board book she pulls off the bottom shelf, and the ones she tries to pull off the middle shelf, too. So take this book list and add a thousand to it. Give or take.

Here's what I read this year, in order (mostly):

Not That Kind of Girl by Lena Dunham
The Secret Life of Violet Grant by Beatriz Williams
George by Alix Gino
Those Girls by Lauren Saft
Famous Last Words by Katie Alender
Lord of Scoundrels by Loretta Chase
Bringing Up Bebe by Pamela Druckerman
Housewitch by Katie Schickel
The Walls Around Us by Nova Ren Suma
The Haunting of Sunshine Girl by Paige Mckenzie and Alyssa Scheinmel
Waking Up to the Dark by Clark Strand and Will Lytle
Meant to Be by Lauren Morrill
Ravencliffe by Carol Goodman
Daughter of Deep Silence by Carrie Ryan
In the Unlikely Event by Judy Blume
Summer Sisters by Judy Blume
Dietland by Sarai Walker
The Royal We by Heather Cocks and Jessica Morgan
Adrift by Paul Griffin
The Luckiest Girl Alive by Jessica Knoll
I Know How She Does It by Laura Vanderkam
Tiny Little Thing by Beatriz Williams
The Dead Girls of Hysteria Hall by Katie Alender
Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls by Lynn Weingarten
The Accident Season by Moira Fowley-Dole
Conversion by Katherine Howe
Along the Infinite Sea by Beatriz Williams
First Blush: FROSH #1 by Monica B. Wagner
The Appearance of Annie van Sinderen by Katherine Howe
Kasey Screws up the World by Rachel Shane
A Window Opens by Elisabeth Egan
A Little Life by Hanya Yanigahara
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone by J.K. Rowling
A Tangle of Gold by Jaclyn Moriarty
Kill the Boy Band by Goldy Moldavsky
Goodbye Stranger by Rebecca Stead
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets by J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling
Men We Reaped by Jesmyn Ward

And now, the short version:

My favorite adult book of the year: Dietland by Sarai Walker (runners-up include The Secret Life of Violet Grant and The Luckiest Girl Alive)
My favorite YA of the year: The Accident Season by Moira Fowley-Dole (Lots of runners-up, though, including Adrift, The Walls Around Us, A Tangle of Gold, and The Royal We if we're considering that YA)
My favorite middle grade of the year: Goodbye Stranger by Rebecca Stead
The most helpful thing I read this year: Bringing Up Bebe by Pamela Druckerman
The book I most struggled with this year: A Little Life by Hanya Yanigahara

I have a long backlist on both my ereader and my nightstand, so 2016 is already off to a strong start.

Happy reading!